End of the Year

Well it’s the end of the year, so I’ve decided I’d tell you about my day. Don’t ask me how I worked that one out, I don’t really know, but I might do it anyways. Or at least a little piece of my day? Who knows?

I slept in late today. I’m not really sure why I did something like that, but I think it was my interalness telling me to sleep so I could stay up for tonight. I don’t know, but maybe you do?

I’ve officially become addicted to V8, you know, the vegetable juice? Quite strange, I know it, but it’s so good. It might be really weird, to you, but to me, it’s well, weird. I don’t know where I picked this thing up, and I don’t know how long I’m going to be on it, but yea. At least I got 560% of my Vitamin C today.

I bought The Garden State today. Quite possibly one of the best movies in the history of mankind, or at least of our time. If you haven’t seen it, you should. I love this movie. You do too, you just haven’t seen it yet.

I am completely out of it. As in, I can’t stand up for like 3 hours at a time. As in, I can’t stand to look at my face in the mirror. As in, I’m really freaking out to just be. Today, I was in the shower and as I was getting out I effectively blacked out and fell on the ground. I’m not sure how long I was there, laying on the floor, thinking about myself, but it was weird (yes, there might be medical implications, but I don’t want to think about that; it was kind of freeing.) Do you realize how many times I’ve said weird in this one entry alone. That’s weird.

So it’ll be a new year in about two hours, and I’m not sure how I’m going to spend it. All my friends are out at a party that they didn’t bother to tell me about. I’m thinking now that maybe I want to be a director. As in a film director? I don’t know. Put that in my new years resolutions list. Oh, about that. I haven’t actually written them down, but I think I have an idea about what I want. I love this movie, I’m watching it right now. I love you, because you’re so nice to read this. It’s almost new years, and I’ll drink to that.

I Wonder

Have you ever had a moment when your with the one person in the world you want to be with, and the wind is blowing through your hair and the song that just describes your entire soul happens to come on? And then the person you just happen to be with happens to love the same song, and suddenly you realize you’re listening to it together. And no matter how crazy your life has gotten there’s this one moment, this perfect moment. One where you could just say, no one can take this moment away from me.

Have you ever had that? No, I haven’t either.

In Standing: People

People never stop surprising me. I’ve just realized, that some even love me as much as I love them. They amuse me sometimes, too.

How many things in your life can make you cry one minute, miss and long for the next, then after ripping you open, support you and everything you want in your latest moment of peril?

Maybe, I’ve been spending too long trying to fix my own problems and those of others that I’ve not seen all the help people have offered me, or love they have sent my way. Perhaps, out of my own jealousy and desire, I’ve ignored what they are, simply to get what I want. How selfish can I get?

But then, when I think I’ve destroyed everything, someone comes back for me, and still not giving me what I want, saves me.

Tonight with Napoleon

I saw Napoleon Dynamite tonight. Yes it still sucks. No, I didn’t hate it.

I, for the first time in a while, enjoyed myself. I was able to laugh and make funny jokes, and…

And I’m so sick of writing this. I’m done for now. More in 5 days, mmk?