There more I reach for it, the faster it slips away. Things should have been happier by now. How am I supposed to keep it together now?
I hate people that say they miss the old things, but are actually the cause of the fragmentation anyway. Good fucking job, you dip. Other than that, you might realize how much I miss you, all.
Anyway, we all need a break. Teacher’s complain that this is their busiest season, and I hate to break it to them, but it’s ours too. We bring it upon ourselves. We need a national holiday– that way the Jews won’t be upset that we have Christmas anymore.
I suppose I live with my mistakes now, learn from them. It doesn’t matter much, it’s far past. All that matters is what I’m going to do tomorrow, and things are looking bright.
I’m going to college, and you’re not. Damn, that feels good.
“Congratulations, you just defeated the Borg with the only thing the Borg can never touch: the human spirit. As long as we have that, resistance is never futile.”
Something about Star Trek makes me feel very at home. That’s where I will be someday.
That was the Birthday I really deserved.
I wish things were simpler, more like they used to be. I long to throw everything away and live in a small village with my friends, whomever they may be, and live off our wonderful world. There are some things that can capture an imagination of a small child, but again, there are things that steal sprits and minds of adults. Now that I am one, I see how much I have done wrong, and worse, how much I want out.
I was twice accused of simply jumping on the next bandwagon, as opposed to this conservative bandwagon. I worry about that every day, but I think it’s alright. Even if it isn’t the right thing to do, someone else will balance me out, and that’s what it’s about. No one way is going to be right forever, is it? Trust me, the world is getting hotter, and it’s our fault. Whether or not I’m going about it correctly is in the air. Also, while we’re on random thoughts, I find it cruel that it’s the people you barely know that take care of you, but your “friends” who can manage to forget about you, or rather ignore you.
Sometimes, it really would make that much of a difference if you would have remembered. If we could go back, even to just when we were friends… I’ve never said it before, but this is one thing in my life I would change. I have no desire to live conventionally anymore. I see more value in friendship than anything else, and too many people have given it up. Simply and please forgive. Move to the country, even if only in your imagination, with me.
That’s kind of exactly how it is. I hate you, and I apologize so much that I was too loud for your liking. In other news, Happy Birthday, Self. I wish you would have said goodbye; is that bad?
You will hardly know who I am or what I mean,
But I shall be good health to you nevertheless,
And filter and fibre your blood.Failing to fetch me at first keep encouraged,
Missing me one place search another,
I stop somewhere waiting for you.