I don’t know any better but to get scared. Since we’ve met, we’ve had this great connection, but now, I’m more worried about ruining it. I can’t sleep with you gone. I can usually find a song to go along or give some meaning to how I’m feeling. More and more though, I find myself envying the Vulcan culture and mindset.
Please tell me what to do, I’m so disappointed in you; I feel let down. You said those words that made me cry and always wondered why I sing my lullaby. I wish you could see it in my face; I wish you’d understand how much you make me unacceptable. I wish I weren’t your lost shadow. Ask me why I’m sad, and I’ll tell you. Ask me and I’ll tell you why I’m writing this now.
This isn’t a new thing. I wished phones worked in two directions.
“You know what, you should take your lady home tonight and do something to her that you do don’t do to ladies. You know, give her cold tea; they hate cold tea!”
I wish I could forget you. I wish what you didn’t say didn’t make me in constant desire for more, and what you do say didn’t make me want to die. I wish you’d forget me. I wish I could just set sale and become a pirate. Too bad I’m too damn thirsty.
It is what it is. I’m embarrassed, exposed, hurt, and exhausted. I’m elated, thankful, and reminiscent. I don’t like feeling alone and I hate to lose. Gratification is found in working with a group to accomplish its greatest potential, even if one person ignores you. It is what it is, and I’m finally ready to take it for exactly that.
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Out here on the ledge
I’m not far away from stepping off
I finally picked out my cloud
It’s the one over there surrounded by all that air
You reached out your hand
And said “I understand”
So why not come down?
Well except for a few small bruises, cuts and scars I’m fine
Oh except for a few small bruises, cuts and scars I’m fine
Thank you for asking!
I’m so glad we had this moment here alone
I know they think I’m crazy
But everything I am, is everything I was taught to be
Except…
As you read my words out loud
Make me sound genius
Make me sound special
And mabye I’ll come down…